Somehow... I have no idea why I just think of spending time with you every other day. Like that's the only way or that's the only thing to complete my day. I secretly hope to just fit into your schedule when the day ends and we can have some time of our own. Though it happens most of the time, I don't like it that it has to be impromptu, more often than not. Perhaps it's just how circumstances are, and that we have no control over it. But still? :\
And on certain days I feel really scared. Over, idk what. Some days I just can't help imagining - that one day when I wake up and open my eyes to find that you're not there anymore. As usual.
Yes, I do have an issue. Quite a serious one, as a matter of fact. I'm afraid of losing people. So much so that I do not dare hold them close enough to hurt me. Yet this time round my heart tell me otherwise. I could actually let you in closer, and be more than close enough to hurt. Because I trust that you wouldn't. I'm complicated? Not so, I just wanna be sure of The One, at least for now. I don't want to go a great distance only to realise we've been going in circles, you get what I mean?
On a side note, I realised I haven't been taking photos and blogging or posting them on facebook and raving about my days. I really don't know why but it's kinda sad. Yet at the same time I'm quite loving this mystery that some of y'all ought there might be dying to find out, or maybe none. But whichever the case, I'm not telling, not divulging much about my life. All I can say is, I'm really loving the comfort. That is when paranoia doesn't get the better of me.
Naive I may sound, of all the 11:11, I wish for that one same thing all over.
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