Cause all that's waiting is regret

Would really love to post an entry about my day-to-day life BUT...! No but(s), I just don't want to. Don't feel like, don't have to, right? Yes.

It's supposedly study break for now but I've been working more than studying due to unforeseen circumstances. Highly classified. Whenever I feel so unmotivated, there's bound to be somebody who would be there to remind me how I don't want to forward my module and then I get so stressed up. Yes, I have my pile of stats notes right infront of me now and they're hypnotising me.

Actually sometimes when I sit and think. It sucks that I have to admit I'm insecure somehow. But who cares, defences up anyw. Guess I built the walls around me up too high since day one. I don't even know if I'm that comfortable behind this wall of mine that I've built but oh well? Sometimes it just feels really good when someone tries to break it down in order to feel close to you. At the same instance, it's just so freaky. People come and go, and no one's here to stay permanently isn't it? At least that's what I believe.

Okay, perhaps insecure is a wrong choice of word. Skeptical would be more apt. Never too trusting, never hold someone that close enough to hurt. They say when the right one comes, you'd know. The feeling would be right. So for now, let's just live the moment.

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Yay, it's almost lunchtime soon. I need to feel more awake soon. The mini carton of HL milk is prolly the reason why I feel so sleepy now. What a cute combi breakfast today - HL milk + koko crunch. Kid's meal, totally?

Oh another note, the week in ending so cheers!